A breathtaking novel about the transformative power of love, friendship, and forgiveness. This book is perfect for fans of 13 Reasons Why by Jay Asher.


How do you survive when your best friend takes his own life?



Khloe knows she cannot survive without her best friend by her side. Carter was not the suicidal type, and Khloe can't understand his leaving her so abruptly. Her discovery of Carter's journal opens up a secret portal into all his deepest secrets. While Khloe unravels the hidden darkness of her best friend's life, hoping to discover what drove him to commit suicide, she struggles without him. As she stumbles back into the treacherous world he left behind, she turns to prescription drugs, sex, and the tip of a needle to feel her pain for her.



Khloe's friend Ava tries to reason with her, but the more Khloe learns about Carter's life, the less she understands. When Khloe almost falls over the edge, a handsome paramedic, Ty, saves her life and seems intent on saving her heart along with it.



However, the shadows that chased Carter are hot on her heels, and unless she can find the peace he couldn't find, she might follow Carter past the last page.