A memoir of self-destruction, abject desperation, and the quiet miracle of surrender...

Told in vivid, unflinching scenes from a difficult childhood through the wreckage of addiction, Coming to Believe traces Garnet’s dramatic descent from a high school girl enchanted by her first fuzzy navel to a fifty-something carpool mom still drunk from the night before. A high-functioning alcoholic with three kids and a crumbling interior life, she was spiraling toward a truth she could no longer deny: she was going to die—or kill someone—if she didn’t stop drinking.

With wit, raw honesty, and a fair amount of swearing, Garnet lays bare just how far she fell before clawing her way out of the darkness. This is the story of one woman who found a way to surrender—not to someone else’s version of God, but to her own truth. And how, alone on a yoga mat in a locked rehab ward, she finally made the ask… and was stunned when something answered.