I had a break down in my recent life. I went to a hospital to get help for the anxiety that really scared the poopy out of me. Anxiety does that. The first thing I had done was wrote a poem about my son and husband. They are my world and always will be. As I was going into the hospital, I had begun to think about writing about what I was thinking and the poetry that came out of my mind when I was there. It is always hard to go into the hospital for a mental problem you may have going on, but I decided to try and make sense of my thoughts when I was writing in the journal they gave us. It became to me a open book for who and what was going on when I had gotten panic attacks almost non-stop for almost two days before going in. If you think about it the mind is a whole big bag of thoughts and emotions. I was in for a couple of weeks and feel these thoughts and emotions may enlighten others to mental illness and mental wellness. Mental wellness is an ongoing process of not being well to being well. Not everyone you hear about in mental health is a raving lunatic and even though I can be a raving oddball I am and most people I know are just having trouble with the wellness of their mental health when they look "crazy" so to speak. I hope this book sheds some light into my own troubles. It is going to be my start for the real writing I want to begin.