After fathering a baby, Josh moves in with his karate-loving uncle and tries to forget. But he can't forget. So many things bring back memories of last year and the night that changed everything. Every day the pain, the shame, and the just not knowing are never far from his thoughts. Why is he such a loser? How could he have done what he did? In the companion novel to Jumping Off Swings, a teen father tries to come to terms with the guilt of his past and prepare for his quickly approaching future.