What happens when just days before your thirteenth birthday, you become a mother? Not to a child, but to yourself. And what happens when you’re forced to navigate that journey without a manual or a guide?

In this raw and deeply personal memoir, Ayo Deforge peels back the unending layers of grief, exposing the heartbreak and enduring wounds that loss leaves. With unflinching honesty, she guides readers through the weight of unresolved sorrow, the challenges of adulthood without parental support, a decade-long battle with a body reluctant to give life, and an exploration of faith. It is a journey through self-discovery, spirituality, self-forgiveness, healing, and the resilience required to reconstruct a life fragmented by grief.

For anyone who has carried the burden of unfinished mourning, felt unmoored in adulthood, or faced the silent despair of infertility—this book stands as a proof to the human spirit’s capacity to rediscover itself and reconnect with its source amidst life’s most challenging trials.